Not dumb enough

I'm not chicken
I'm full of
Tremendous
Smiling with
Each and every
Loss
Alienated
Delineated
I lose everything
Constantly
And I'll lose
It again
Till I win
Because love
Is like that
And I'll only
Ever truly love
One person
Her smell
Her laugh
And sure I'm
Dumb as a mountain
Of hammers
But someday
I won't be
And maybe in
The next life
I'll be happier
Than this one
If we get another one
But I'm not dumb
Enough to believe
That sadly

I Feel Electricity

I feel electricity
Sometimes
My car door opens
Hiii
And I smell a smell
And torn from me
And hey how are you
All right
I feel alive sometimes
And laughing
Sipping beer
Or sake
And a twisted smile
Two twisted smiles
And shaking
Fingers
And calmness
And the taste
Of cigarettes
I didn't smoke
And tenderness
Engulf my soul