Not dumb enough

I'm not chicken
I'm full of
Tremendous
Smiling with
Each and every
Loss
Alienated
Delineated
I lose everything
Constantly
And I'll lose
It again
Till I win
Because love
Is like that
And I'll only
Ever truly love
One person
Her smell
Her laugh
And sure I'm
Dumb as a mountain
Of hammers
But someday
I won't be
And maybe in
The next life
I'll be happier
Than this one
If we get another one
But I'm not dumb
Enough to believe
That sadly